TIME≠∞

“Cherish these nights, cherish these people.

Life is a movie but there will never be a sequel.”

– Nicki Minaj

Time: The indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole. 

Time, as it is defined above is described to be indefinite; however I know and you know that for every individual time is actually limited.

Questions:

  • What does that mean to you?
  • Does that definition have an impact on your interpretation of time in your life?

If not, it’s cool, because quite frankly, I’m still trying to make sense of time myself (hence why I’m asking these questions). But I will tell you some of the conclusions I’ve come to. Pay close attention to how I analyze this concept.

First, it’s a fact that: 

You usually don’t ever have as much time as you think you do.

At this moment, this generation, my generation, has no idea what the value of time is. This is a very tricky and unfortunate truth, in that many of us don’t need to rush to grow up, but simultaneously, we shouldn’t stunt our growth either.

Note: Figuring out the balance of time, which suits our individual paths, can be uncertain. Why?  Because balancing time is not black and white, just like life isn’t.

“Mentally and emotionally, many of us do not grasp the essence of time’s subtle but potent treasures.”

-Chántelle Agbro

“Life teaches us to make good use of time while time teaches us the value of life.” -Healthythoughts

How many of you can say that you have come to the realization of time’s significance?

Well…I don’t expect many responses in favor of that question because I know it’s hard to master.

Procrastination can be my weakness, especially being a college student where time seems to always be there and never valued. That notion alone made me want to encourage others to care and value substance in general.

Do you see where I’m coming from?

If so, ask yourself:

  • Why do I tend to spend a lot of time worried about all the wrong things?
  • Why do I get distracted so easily by the nonsense society feeds me while literally letting time slip right from under me?

“The way we spend our time defines who we are.”

– Jonathan Estrin

Remember: You always have “all the time in the world” until yours runs out… and it will run out, trust me.

Speaking of time running out, I’ve recently been battling with my own internal struggles regarding the concept of time.

My heart and mind have been very heavy leading up to this day. It is the 7th year anniversary of my grandmother’s passing from breast cancer.

The thoughts that run through my head are crazy. I’m constantly thinking of how the closest person to me could be gone forever.

It is the worst feeling, I wouldn’t wish it for my worst enemy.

I went to visit her grave site last week to clear my mind and I couldn’t even believe how much time had gone by.

I’m sitting in the grass looking in the sky like: “Seems just like yesterday you were here grandma. You were always excited for your favorite holiday (Christmas), and  reassuring me that we weren’t going to let cancer beat us and how strong we were in dealing with it. Now look where we are…”

It kills me to think that so much time passes and I have no control over it.

Am I the only one who thinks that’s scary?

I look around me and I see my parents. The simple thought let alone indication of them getting older frightens me. Even though I’m excited to get older and experience new things, I can never forget that time is passing and everything/everyone is aging around me, as well. Knowing that my love for them is timeless I would add more time to their clocks if is was possible.

I can’t lose them.

“Time is what we want the most but use the worst.”

-William Penn

We all want extra time that’s evident. However, I want you to really think about it. If you were given more time, even a second more, whether it be consciously or unconsciously, how would it be utilized?

Be honest with yourself.

The two most powerful warriors are patience and time.”

Leo Tolstoy

It is scary not to know when it is someone’s time to go. Truth be told I can’t even fathom the thought of losing anyone else. Time and patience have become my lifelong band aids through this process. They go hand and hand and have opened my eyes to a lot.

For instance, with clarity I now am witnessing that when events transpire with time, they are there to either shape or break you. I was always taught that love and family would see you through but I guess that was a lie.

I don’t understand it…

  • Why people claim they love you but can go years without speaking to you.
  • How people can be so close one day and strangers the next.

It bothers me. It hurts me. It confuses me.

I promise you a lot of the things that I’ve gone through makes me feel like I don’t have a heart. Between losing family members and getting hurt emotionally through relationships; I honestly don’t see how I could not have a broken heart.

Note: Whether we are on speaking terms or not, if I ever told you I love you and I took time out of my life for you than that was real, and you can’t ever knock what’s real because it speaks for itself.

It’s no secret that we will not live forever on this earth. We are actually reminded every second, that the meaning of life to the majority  is useless. It actually baffles me to think that one day I was created, only to live for a period of time and then leave again, like I never existed.

That fact alone, should be incentive enough for you to value time.

Your time.              Her time.            His time.                Their time.

Value and respect it, it will take you a long way. I hope you have the same epiphany as I have.

“The moment you realize how important time is, your entire perspective will change.”

In loving memory of Josephine Allen.

(Sep. 5 1932 – Dec. 8 2008)

-I love you, everything I do is for you.

#GrandmasGirl

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17 thoughts on “TIME≠∞

  1. I love it!!! Very raw, personal and emotional. It made me want to cry but I won’t, thinking about how fast time is passing gives me major anxiety so it’s best to live in the moment!

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  2. Okay, so first of all thank you… I needed to see this. I have always been able to come to you about things that are heavy on my heart, it’s so beautiful to see you put everything so artistically and beautifully in words… Making time for myself and the ones I love is incredibly important and I’m thankful to have a sister as yourself that understands and appreciates that concept as well! I love you xoxo

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  3. They say time waits for no one. I believe even more important than directly thinking abou time. it is important to make the most of every opportunity /moment. We never know when we will get that again.

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  4. You speaking the real when you talk about time. The definition says infinite. But its definitely limited in our lives. We have to take advantage of every moment because it will just pass us by. Time waits for no one. I needed this post as i graduate and start the real world. I can’t let time pass me by!

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  5. Reading this post really put a lot of things back into perspective to me not only did it remind me of how long it’s been since I spent the holidays with my late grandmother but it was a reminder that I should make use of the time I do have and make it count. This post was perfect timing for me ❤️ Keep up the great posts 😁.

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  6. I love this , time is so important. I can relate so much to this my mom was just diagnosed with breast cancer a few months ago and now we are going through chemo and time is all I think about . You never realize how important Time is until that’s all you got.

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    1. I’m very sorry to hear that but stay strong because it’s not easy to deal with! I’m so glad this resonated with you! Much love to you and your family 😚

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  7. Read this post again and it brought me to tears….again! I think this may be my favorite one. I love the topic of “Time.” Time is the only constant in our lives. It is the only thing that will never change and always be. Knowing that eventually all of our loved ones and even US: every being in this world is running on a timer. It is the most beautiful and most horrifying thing to think about. I dread the days I am forced to say goodbye to my loved ones but I also know that death is just another part of life. Thanks honey! Recommendation: ‘Time’ by Fetty Wap

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  8. I’m catching up! I think this is my favorite so far because I’m getting closer and closer to the end of my senior year and sooner than later I will be on my way to college, away from home. Time is going by very fast and I don’t want it to be over.

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