just cause

i could write a lot today..

like most days because I always have a lot to say.

but I’m not.

I’m going to hold my tongue, I’m going to let my graceful silence leave you stunned.

since you somehow think you’ve won.

i’m going to turn a new leaf,

not for you but for me.

this time it’s all mine,

and no, these aren’t just words,

it’s the declaration of my soul telling you what i deserve.

and that morphs every inch of me.

i’m emotional and that’s my super power,

i’ll tell you more right after i cleanse myself, rejuvenate my spirit and mind

in this lengthy but much needed anointed shower.

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My Soul Told On Me update:

HEY ALL! DON’T FORGET THAT MY MEMOIR RELEASE DATE IS COMING SOON!!! AS WELL AS, THE RELEASE OF MY COVER ART (sneak peek pic above)! I’VE BEEN WORKING SO HARD AND I CAN’T WAIT TO SHARE MY SOUL WITH ALL OF YOU!

 

I LOVE YOU!

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You Say You Love Me…

You say you love me

but give everyone else your loyalty.

You say you care

but give them the most precious thing we’re supposed to share.

I know love may come easy to you,

I know it may flow right off your tongue,

but the way you indecisively use it with me feels like a gun.

Ask yourself please, why choose me?

I mean, I obviously know why by default

but do you?

If not, you need to.

Explicitly.

If we’re here together emotionally, affectionately and for eternity

then don’t be afraid to show me.

You aren’t the only one scared, second guessing, hesitant, & weighing options available and unavailable.

You aren’t the only one contemplating, thinking, dreaming, regretting, & praying

that this choice, the choice which is you, which is me, & which is us, is the right one.

Do you even know the damage that you’ve caused?

You say “you know you hurt me” as if you’re saying “Hello” to each guest as a receptionist in a hotel.

Is it that much of a habit for you?

Is it that casual?

Was it that painless for you to break what you were supposed to cherish 

and keep on living like I was nothing?

Tell me, since you love me, answer me.

QTNA.

This nonchalantness you now call yourself isn’t becoming of you.

It’s also not acceptable,

and it will for certain destroy anything real that’s gravitating towards you.

You say you love me,

but right here & right now, I declare and decree,

if you push me away this go round I’ll be gone shawty, indefinitely.

-Signed, there’s no love like mine.-

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Glitter∼

I am an entire song.

Not just one verse, not just the chorus nor the hook.

but the entire song.

From the raw, flawed handwritten lyrics

to the polished final product,

It’s All Me!

The common misconception of my energy

is that of its reason for creation was to please man,

yet it wasn’t.

My being is colorful, completely colorful.

Me entiende?

Some colors are darker than others

but I don’t mind because they all serve their purpose.

Truth is, with the intentional calling over my life,

I couldn’t half-ass my destiny’s canvas even if I wanted to.

There comes a time where we are shown

what we are, who we are, and why we are.

And baby, I’ve accepted that I am lethal in the most necessary ways possible.

I am art. I am love. I am rhythmic. I am rich. I am royal.

I wasn’t just put here meaninglessly.

My essence never was and never will be worthless.

But because I’m so potent, it’s easily misconstrued by the shallow as something negative.

I can’t do anything about that, though. Take me as I am or keep it moving!

Warning:

You have limited amounts of times to selfishly run through me. There is beauty, life and strength in my brokenness.

I say all this to stress that I am literally magic.

Not in the fairy-tale aspect but in the supernatural one.

 My magic continuously searches and will solely connect with something real.

Something that lives beyond this lifetime, something that lasts forever.

Note: You have to know yourself, feed yourself, be yourself before you can do anyone or anything else any good!

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The Wait

I love you Jesus.

I worship and adore you.

Just wanna tell you, that I love you more than anything.

Today, I reflect on the last days of writing my manuscript for my first book!!

I am soooo excited to release it and for you all to read it:)

It is a tough process but this is what I asked or so I am pushing through. In this process, I know and see GOD is working and I pray he continues to work on me as a person and steers me away from reliving and bringing up the past.

That hinders me. 

I struggle with wanting what I want now and thinking that I’m ready for things that GOD is still working on for me. It’s not even so much that I want to rush, but because I feel that I’ve been going nowhere really fast in the relationship part of life, I question a lot, lol. I am okay with focusing on myself, obviously, but it seems I’ve been doing that forever, lol.

You know?

Older people tell me all day everyday that:

“You’re sooo young baby, and you have your whole life to grow up, love, be in love and be in a relationship.” 

I know that’s true but I also know that being in love isn’t something that I would get tired of , if it magically decided to manifest itself right now in my life.

Love is Love.

Sometimes it really does suck and gets lonely when you’re mentally more mature than majority of your peers. Not to mention that guys are just stupid, lol. Soo where does all this unfortunate information leave me?

Right here, writing to you all, that’s where.

I’m very anxious for the beauty to unfold, though!

What’s your daily struggle?

#TheWait is real.

Yet, I know it is very powerful, which is why I accept it.

When GOD turns the situations that were meant for your bad into your good, it’s only right that he receives all the glory!

I have to remember everyday to say: “I love you and I trust you GOD, with everything in me.” I also have to really live and believe that every second of the day.

If not, I can worry and overthink my way into dark and unsettling place, which no one wants to do.

#OverthinkingIsMyLife

Thank you GOD for this day and I hope everyone has a marvelous Tuesday!

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The Stretchhhhhh.

Today’s blog post is very simple, and it’s simple in that I don’t necessarily have a story to tell nor an experience to share but only observations and a call to action.

I named this post “The Stretch” because keeping faith in the greater and positive things in life unfortunately sometimes feels like it’s too much, or as if it’s a stretch.

I found myself coming across a lot of sad and disturbing news the past two weeks. Even though I know that isn’t what you want to here (neither do I), you will be happy to know that I also came across the solution as well!!!!!!

We have so many “problems” in this world, some categorized more harmful than others, yet the answer to fix them is still the same.

“When are we going to understand that we are put on earth, to love. That’s all it’s about. Everybody wants to figure out how complicated life is and break it down. This is what I truly think, war gonna keep going on, frustration gonna keep going on, anger gonna keep going on till we finally go back  down to the simplest word, LOVE.”

-Kendrick Lamar

Yup, that’s right people, it all comes down to the concept of Love.

I already know what you’re thinking,

“Oh, well it’s not that easy when you’ve been through “X Y and Z” over and over again.”

“I can’t just love when my son, brother, daughter, sister, mother, aunt, uncle, grandma, grandpa, or father was killed just because of the color of their skin.”

This is something I definitely struggle with as well but think about it like this. If we do not love and continue to hate, and be mad, then the cycle never ends, correct? And if the cycle never ends then what will your children and your grandchildren have to look forward to?

Everyone always wants to just live in the now, and okay, fine that’s great but now is the time to love like never before. Do you all not see what is happening around us? Don’t take it lightly that there is so much hate around us.

We have to stop the cycle, and the best way to start is of course love yourself and then become educated and learn more about how people just hate because they are taught to and through this you will seek the significance of loving every person.

The stretch.

Is it a far stretch to believe that one day the color of someone’s skin will not matter to the next person?

Is it a far stretch to dare to believe in myself, my dreams, my thoughts about changing the world when I’m still trying to get people to even read my blog post consistently?

Is it a far stretch?

From the presidential elections, to the constant killing of our own people by our own people because of the brainwashed society, to a 12 year old girl  in Texas attacked by white students on a field trip attempting to lynch her and nobody looked to help her, to the police officer getting off on all charges in the case of Freddie Gray, things are out of hand, are they not?

Those events right there, amongst the other terrible things that happen daily that are not publicized are what we have to look forward to if we don’t find the love and start stretching it.

Stretch love because if you haven’t found your “specific purpose” on earth up until this point in life just know that the single and most important purpose is to love. You have to love and you have to forgive. Be love and then everything around you will follow suit. Nowadays, many people think love is a luxury or it is something that needs to be earned, no, you’re wrong you are obligated to love, just because it’s our natural instinct to do so.

Trust and believe that it hurts you a lot more trying to resist love then maintaining hate and anger in you heart.

I’m preaching to myself right now because I’m the type to hold grudges. I will be honest, I am the type of person that if anyone hurts my family or me one time then I completely shut down and cut off all feelings and communication.

But I have to get my mind right, because if Jesus could forgive and still love all those people who deliberately persecuted, and harmed him then who am I not to love? Who am I not to forgive?

Now, I am promoting  the stretch of love and forgiveness because that is why we are put on this earth. But remember loving and forgiving doesn’t mean that you let people back into the space where they have harmed you before, if it’s not God’s will to turn it into something immaculate. However, it does mean that you keep good blood between people, and you love from a distance. Protect your heart but truly love and truly forgive simultaneously.

I’m telling you all being here in South America has done me good. My headspace is clearer than it has ever been and I am so grateful. I needed this time, this distance, and this different energy to heal and to thrive in my own peace.

I am finally free!

“Walk into each day knowing that you have a reason to be; and your reason to be, by default, is to LOVE. Choose being vulnerable effortlessly because without it we’ll never truly be free!”

– Chántelle Agbro

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. It’s always relevant. 

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