The Wait

I love you Jesus.

I worship and adore you.

Just wanna tell you, that I love you more than anything.

Today, I reflect on the last days of writing my manuscript for my first book!!

I am soooo excited to release it and for you all to read it:)

It is a tough process but this is what I asked or so I am pushing through. In this process, I know and see GOD is working and I pray he continues to work on me as a person and steers me away from reliving and bringing up the past.

That hinders me. 

I struggle with wanting what I want now and thinking that I’m ready for things that GOD is still working on for me. It’s not even so much that I want to rush, but because I feel that I’ve been going nowhere really fast in the relationship part of life, I question a lot, lol. I am okay with focusing on myself, obviously, but it seems I’ve been doing that forever, lol.

You know?

Older people tell me all day everyday that:

“You’re sooo young baby, and you have your whole life to grow up, love, be in love and be in a relationship.” 

I know that’s true but I also know that being in love isn’t something that I would get tired of , if it magically decided to manifest itself right now in my life.

Love is Love.

Sometimes it really does suck and gets lonely when you’re mentally more mature than majority of your peers. Not to mention that guys are just stupid, lol. Soo where does all this unfortunate information leave me?

Right here, writing to you all, that’s where.

I’m very anxious for the beauty to unfold, though!

What’s your daily struggle?

#TheWait is real.

Yet, I know it is very powerful, which is why I accept it.

When GOD turns the situations that were meant for your bad into your good, it’s only right that he receives all the glory!

I have to remember everyday to say: “I love you and I trust you GOD, with everything in me.” I also have to really live and believe that every second of the day.

If not, I can worry and overthink my way into dark and unsettling place, which no one wants to do.

#OverthinkingIsMyLife

Thank you GOD for this day and I hope everyone has a marvelous Tuesday!

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Solitude.∫

“To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions.”

-Deepak Chopra 

The sad and unfortunate truth about this quote is that most people living  on earth now, will never reach this point of living, let alone of understanding. The simple fact that in this day and age being alone is considered a sign of weakness, speaks loud and clear to how ignorant and backwards this generation actually is.

Being alone is the ultimate sign of strength (if you ask me) because you know how to get through hell without being dependent.

I get criticized all the time for being alone, because people automatically assume that equates to being lonely. However, people fail to realize that it’s a choiceI choose to be alone! And FYI I’m not lonely and never will be.

“If she’s alone now, she won’t be alone for long.”

And you can bet on that, for those of you who fear being in solitude and are worried about mine.

There is a saying that goes, “In the end all you have is yourself.” and they couldn’t have been more accurate with that statement.

Note: #Solitudeisbliss

For instance, I see this all the time and I’m sure you do too because you probably do it. When you go to a party, cookout, or even a kickback, how many of you would actually even consider going alone? …

Don’t worry I’ll wait.

My guess is 9 out of 10 of you all wouldn’t.

Now, when I refer to going to these places of course I’m speaking of a circumstance that you’ve met the people before and know them very well or well enough.

People in general are  just are afraid of going anywhere alone and I believe it has more to do with internal factors than outside factors. Besides the fact that this generation is socially awkward, everything is also done for show and it’s disgusting.

Everyone thinks “Oh, I’m going to go with this person and that person to this place because everyone is going to be there and I don’t want them to think I don’t have friends, or I don’t want to look dumb or look weak.”

My thoughts: Pathetic.

Now, if you ask me I’d much rather go everywhere alone than to be with people all the time who I really don’t care for. I also sometimes  just like to be left alone.

In my own space.

In my own thoughts.

In my own element.

Because it’s where my best arises!

(This could also have to do with my personality but regardless everyone needs some alone time for a reasonable amount of time. It’s good for the mind, body and soul.)

Now, I’m not saying be alone all the time but I am saying be observant of those around you. I mean think about it guys, how can you ever be serious about YOU, if you are never ever solely just with you?

Answer: You cannot be!

Anyone who tells you that they are serious about themselves and capitalizing on their endeavours but is never alone is a FRAUD! I want to make that very clear, so get your mind right!

“Without great solitude, no serious work is possible”.

 – Picasso

If you always need a crowd/people with you, then you’re a joke and nine times out of ten you’re very insecure as well.

QTNA: Why are you so resistant to be alone?

What are you hiding from?

What don’t you want people to realize about you?

What don’t you want to admit to yourself about yourself?

How long are you going to put up a front?

It’s funny, because while thinking of what exactly to say in this post I realized that solitude has literally been my life for the past 4 years roughly, and I still haven’t spoke on it, well in depth that is, until today.

However, before I go into to grave detail about my life’s previous experiences let me just say this, I know that there are so many people out there my age and slightly older/younger that are confused/ stressing over someone other than themselves.

I am here to tell you: STOP WAISTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME, because you don’t get it back. He/She isn’t worth it…at all.

Trust me, I would know!

If you are meant to be with a person you will be. Let it go and hope and pray they come back around, if anything that you both shared was genuine.

“Plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.”

– Jorge Luis Borges

Note: #Solitudeisbliss

Live your life, travel the world, fall in and out of love about 80 times, make mistakes, but keep in mind that karma does exist so don’t sweat the small stuff!

“I’m learning to appreciate loss. Anything that’s meant to journey with you (technically) can’t leave no matter how hard it tries. Forcing relationships equates to being STAGNANT.

Move Forward.”

Okay, now the moment you’ve all been waiting for!!!!! I know it’s about that time for me to get deep into my life story, about how solitude pertains to my life soooooooooooooooo,  GUESS WHAT!??? (keep scrolling)

I AM WRITING A BOOK ! ! !

So stay tuned for the rest of each posts from now and look out for what I’ve added to my previous ones, you won’t believe it! I really have so much I need/want to share with you all! Your support is the reason I continue to do it! Make sure you spread the word, #2016 will be a marvelous and fruitful year!

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